ventura beach revisited

                      Freddie in Ventura

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those amber sunsets

never set but hung in mind

resplendent always

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many years before

this beach and all that’s on it

were now, were mine

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time was not what it

now is nor is becoming

each moment stayed whole

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the waves held me fast

while the wind blew permanence

over solid sand

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gulls sat in the sky

as if transfixed or painted

by a maker’s hand

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a kid on a beach

– in the timeless space of life –

that kid’s always now

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freddie omm

ventura, september 2019

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The first of my haiku chains about Ventura beach was published here in December 2014: on ventura beach. I wrote this new one and took the photo while revisiting the beach last week. Here’s a shorter edit of the poem on Instagram.

come to me – sonnet

Come to me in the blind and breathless passion of a night

Spent loving free full feral without thought

For morning – climactic darling hours that brought

Us here as one and yet so other, clasped tight

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As here in bed between these warm and crumpled clinging sheets

We bask our bodies in the glow and gladdening glory of the sun

Each rapt and untamed moment which our lives have left to run

Each moment while in each of us our wild heartbeats

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With that loping looping rhythm pulsing love

Outpacing secret cadences of time.

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Charged with that beat, may tantric rhythmic rhyme

Flow through our coupling, energy-infused from high above

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And let our inner powers grow and set us free:

May we become ourselves again, each time you come to me.

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Omm

1989 – everything is now – 2017

Photo by Filipe Almeida via Unsplash

 

our summer of love:

high on hope, hardcore uproar

remixing our lives

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dance in those muddy tribal fields –

surging acid nights – wild orgasmic waves

entranced, crowdy hazy drums

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all one together

when sunset shades to sunrise –

stay up forever!

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heaven in a rave

morphing bodies, spaced-out time:

starstruck eternals

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raucous, thrilled and chilled

travellers, mutating beings

stagger on the stars’ stoned threshold

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in love’s euphoria:

kiss our forever lovers –

softcore love hardwired in all of us

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heartbeat to heartbeat

ecstatic, loved-up pulses

– everything is now –

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Omm

summer 1989 & summer 2017

         Photo by Muhammed Fayiz via Unsplash

shoredays, yoredays: seven haiku on a beach

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now, then, soon – shoredays,

wave-lapped hours, wind-spun and warm

like summer kisses

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blown in midwinter

distillated on our lips

blissed out, oh! timeless

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yoredays – flown, but here

with you forever, come spring

and the buds and birds –

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skies drunk on light, blue

till blacked-out, then flopping blank

on a spinning globe

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summerled like myth,

tripping out on dewy toes –

yoredays, yours, mine, theirs,

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the only sure thing

left is love in all our lives,

strewn along the dunes

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days of sun, shoredays –

all transilluminated,

hewn in memory

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who am i (lana wachowski)

for lana wachowski

001Lana-Wachowski

… who am i, and when

wachowski to wachowska

metamorphosized

was there a moment

before i became me? – no,

and yet i wonder…

♥♥

what turns us queerly

recast in a different film

to act against type?

♥♥♥

(type?) (without a face?)

life’s not some single screenplay…

(type?) (without a cast?)

♥♥♥♥

we ask ourselves this

not knowing if an answer

ever was, will be:

♥♥♥♥♥

never yet someone,

neither a nonentity

nor quite nobody

♥♥♥♥

mostly we don’t ask

for fear of wondering, lost

in rapt selflessness

♥♥♥

one eye on the road

which tears our lives inside out

one hand on the wheel

♥♥

and we become one

body, not anybody,

don’t ask who am i…

♥♥

22nd January 2014

note:

i admire lana wachowski’s work a lot and also her general attitude to stuff (as far as one can make out from her few public statements) – she combines humour with intelligence and experimentation – artistic bravery, openminded energy, a sense of inspirational anarchy…

i wrote this poem in one go last night just after i’d been thinking about her life so far.

(it is likely to get edited, tweeted and played with, being in the nature of an experiment, one of my haiku chains…)

endings & beginnings

my new year’s message this year is this quaint little ditty. i was writing out the fair copy this morning when i was interrupted not by a man from porlock but a mother-in-law from neuss bearing presents. so i had to finish it on a fresh sheet of paper which i then stuck together so you can see that the interruption came at a pertinent point:

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for those who cannot decipher my writing:

 

                                                                  endings & beginnings

                                                                  (in a winter’s garden)

BEGIN with the word that comes first, like light

from a twilit winter’s garden, when soft rainfalls

drop on dewy, leaf-pocked grass, showering bright

like a sudden flow of MOMENTS through the calls

of a goosequilled V tooting past, this starry night…

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I sometimes try to freeze TIME, so it stops

and in an INSTANT feel and think all blend

and merge within MOMENTS—consciousness drops

like heaven’s rainfall in a winter garden—

inconsummate, unbegun, word without END,

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but now SOMETIMES I forget such somethings,

and in your love I’ve found SEASONS to care

about the here, NOW, not some perfected place where

there are no more ENDINGS and BEGINNINGS.

                                                                                              freddie o

                                                                        viersen, 29-31 december 2013